HILARIOUS am i...

so after the tempest of the last post... or at least, i felt it tempestuous; i was crying for a lot of it... i am on more even footing. or something... i'm starting to come back to normal, or at least tell myself that i need to do so... i must live life. a vespa is dangerous, but i will learn to ride it as safely as i can. i will wear a helmet. and life promises no more than that. its really all you can do: read the manuals, wear the safety equipment, and just go. abstaining doesn't gain you anything. it just makes you lose out.

i need to complain about something that you will all hate me for. you will say, "you're an idiot. why is this something that unhinges you?" well, sorry. but its my blog. i get to bitch about anything i want.

i have issues with people liking me. i used to not trust people who liked me. still a bit of an issue. but i've also moved on to realizing that almost anyone likes me. ANYONE!!! i can bring anyone around to me. apparently i am charming and kind, and humorous. the issue is not to find someone who likes me, but to find someone who i like. because i've met several people since i've been here in austin, and i've eschewed them all. they're fine people, but they just don't do it for me. they don't live up to my ridiculously high standards. but i'm unwilling to compromise.

now, part of the problem is that i've met them all over the internet, and the internet is the domain of those who hold no social skills. i do hold social skills, i just also have issues... i'm not good alone at a party. i'm not good in groups. but let me get you alone, and you want to meet me. i'm that cool. forgive me. it seems to be true. i never would have thought it, but it seems to be the case.

again, i wonder... can i clone myself and date my clone? that seems like a decent compromise... contact the c.i.a. there's a project we have to work on...