The Substance Abuse Entry...

all right. so in an effort to purge my soul (yom kippur was the last two days, and its all about purging of the soul and related activities (introspection, thinking about how to be a better person, an entire day of fasting and prayer, you know, all the good stuff...)) i will just start off today's postings with a rundown of sad and sordid facts...

i housesat for my dad and audrey (his wife) this last thursday thru sunday. they were visiting sister at her college. i got drunk thursday night, spent friday in bed, got stoned (reeeally stoned) on friday night with zach and some of his peeps, spent most of saturday in bed, got drunk again saturday night, slept for a lot of sunday, and then picked them up from the airport and dropped them off. oh yeah, and brother and i got stoned sunday night. in honor of columbus day... psssh! yeah right!

during the course of it all, i sustained an ugly gash on my nose. i have no clue how, because i was too drunk to remember when i woke up. i just looked in the mirror and said, "hey, there's a big old abrasion that wasn't there before!" i also vomited, but i cleaned that toilet, so its all good. i did completely nothing about my future plans. and i fished my drivers license out of the license eating couch at my mom's so i could replace all the liquor i consumed. it was a weekend of hedonism. and now its over.

so what did i learn? drinking alone is really not fun. and not healthy. i don't like that i was weak enough to do it. and i really hate being alone. and pot is lots of fun, but only once in a blue moon. twice in a weekend is too much. i like it to be a special little sidetrack. but noOo! i had to do it twice. i had fun both times, but yeah... too much. also, hanging with my brother and his friends is just sad, and i hate that i do that too.

just wanted to get it off my chest... time for a lot of sobriety. its a state far too often overlooked.